This article is very close to my heart. It took me months to pile up all this stuff yet I am not able to find very suitable title to it. I sometimes wonder over the logic of superiority in society. Majority of these logics are based on some totally illogical perceptions and the wry is that they are widely accepted.

Today one complete year is going to pass now, since I moved from Mumbai to DC. Like Mumbai, many come in this big city with their dreams and desires. Everyone has his own tale to tell. Some channelize their efforts and get what they want, some keep struggling and some return back earning something or nothing. I do not rate myself in any of these three categories.

My decision of leaving Mumbai was not based on any of great dreams and desires. It was more because I wanted to prove something to many people and to myself as well. Wanted to test, whether I really have the ability to do what I think I can do. It’s easy to plan and much easier to say that these plans could not be materialized, because circumstances were not favorable. The only difficult thing is - moving against the tides.
I wonder sometimes that how something which is so easily available for one person can be so hard to achieve for another. Principal of equality does not apply in social equations. This is where, I believe in destiny. 'Destiny', which we all want to rule for ourselves. Taken from a king to a beggar, all dream to master their destiny. Some do some do not.

I can never forget those moments travelling from Borivali to Vidyavihar, sitting on a bench at the western line's platform and looking at the trains crossing across. Thousands of people stuffed in one train and train after train with that similar look. How many of them have an identity? How many of them are known by people other than their colleagues, friends or family? How many of them decided to come out of the protection and comfort of their families just to see what the world is all about? How many have the courage to follow what their heart says? How many of them are ready to take the responsibility of their failures and say that I am unhappy because I do not deserve to be happy?

That moment I had told myself that I would never become a part of this stuffing. Things that master the life of these people will never become crucial in my life. I would never live a life where we work, because we want to earn. Perhaps at that time, my belief in me and my thoughts that path towards success is not always the one being followed by people since ages. You have to come out with your own innovative path. How pleasant it is to ridicule your own pain. To refuse that there is any pain at all, something which only a few people can do.

And now when someone today passed a sarcastic remark on me regarding what I have achieved till now. I wanted to tell that I have learned something in one year that you failed to learn even after living more than 22 years.

Yeah,,,, I sometimes feel angry over myself for changing my funda of life, from 'Money can buy nothing' to 'money can buy a majority of things'. I also know the reason behind this anger. I hate paradoxes and I have created one in myself. When you change your opinions, unknowingly you also change your vision. I too have started looking at things that could be bought from money. I have even started seeing dreams which can be fulfilled with money. Unfortunately, they have become important to me and sadly, I have related them with the happiness of some people who are extremely dear to me. And all this to the extent that I have almost forgotten about how I wanted to make them happy, when there was no money in the picture.